Translated from the Portuguese by Lloyd Schwartz

Once upon a time
I insisted on bestowing gifts
upon my brothers and strangers.
They never expressed their gratitude,
never offered anything
in return.
Even the most fleeting thanks.
Even late.

At times I felt foolish—but
I convinced myself
this was normal, the way things worked.
Other times
I gave them presents.
and as their eyelids slowly lifted I could still see
the barriers of condescension,
of stupidity, of venom.

They never knew
either the WHY of my gifts
or the WHY of their refusal
to accept them wholeheartedly.

And for a long time
I ignored why I felt
such desire
to make presents
of paintings,
of Peruvian shirts
I might have sold
as naturally as
they sold me
their things.

Once upon a time
I gave
nothing more.
And received
nothing more.

Victory would be in no longer having to
apologize for being
the very gift I should like
to receive from myself
in every morning’s light;
in spite of the evasive glances
and cockroach jealousies
that make our mother’s life
less life, and day after day
make us less beneficent,
less sons, less brothers,
and more silent
as we listen to the door with no hinges
slamming shut.

Rogério Zola Santiago is a poet, editor, and journalist in Belo Horizonte, Brazil. He’s the author of three books of poems, Draga (The Dredge), Fragatas & Silencios (Frigates & Silences), and Terra Brasilis.

Lloyd Schwartz teaches in the MFA Program at the University of Massachusetts-Boston, where he is professor of English. His poems have been selected for The Pushcart Prize, The Best American Poetry, and The Best of The Best American Poetry. His most recent book is _Music In—and On—the Air _(Arrowsmith), a collection of his reviews for NPR’s Fresh Air. After thirty-five years as The Boston Phoenix’s classical music editor, which earned him the Pulitzer Prize for Criticism in 1994, he’s now senior editor of classical music for New York Arts. His books include These People, Goodnight, Gracie, and the forthcoming _Cairo Traffic. _(2013)