I was joking
_                _ (there was always
_                                  _ that)

when I moved
_                _ my fingers down
_                                  _ the buttons

of her blouse
_                _ and then around
_                                  _ the knots

of the breasts.
_                _ When she moved
_                                  _ her legs apart,

I took her thighs
_                _between my hands
_                                 _ and rubbed

them down
_               _and up.
_                                 _ And then

I stood
_               _and walked
_                                 _ into the bathroom

to see
_               _how I looked
_                                 _ in the mirror

when the dark rises
_               _above the neck.
_                                 _ Eyes,

I could live with
_              _without seeing.
_                                 _ Then,

the water.
            Fuck you, I said,
                                  And stood still.