Barbie Chang should have seen
the signs should
have noticed the signs in the street
_ _ that were backwards
that were in a different language
_ _ should have noticed
the people hiding behind trees in front
_ _ of her mother’s house
her mother catching her breath after
_ _ a shower little pieces of
death that fell off of her like dust
_ _ for two years the car
never moved then her body hardly
_ _ moved out of the bed
death is fragmented is not a noun but
_ _ a verb its movements
are invisible Barbie Chang visited each
_ _ day with her wagon of
food guns ready to shoot the dragons
_ _ under the bed to shoot
the dementia out of her father’s head
_ _ she should have
seen the signs but was busy tending to
_ _ her children sleeping
with both eyes closed she was tired of
_ _ her mother tired of her
anger toward her father tired of her
_ _ father’s weather
his errors tired of their errands tired
_ _ of her lungs and their
refusal to open why do we kill flowers
_ _ for a funeral when there
is already so much death fifty people
_ _ came all the people
who never visited who never saw her
_ _ fill canisters with air
the hospice notebook said 7:14 can’t
_ breathe_ then 7:34 last
breath Barbie Chang never saw her take
_ _ her second-to-last breath
never saw her wait twenty seconds wait
_ _ for Barbie Chang to come
see her wait for Barbie Chang to punch
_ _ holes in her lungs
Barbie Chang couldn’t find the hole puncher
_ _ wanted to punch herself for
not singing to her for not medicating her
_ _ father for not believing her
mother about her father for not combining
_ _ the word death with an
object for thinking death is something
_ _ within itself something
containable like an eyeball is it better
_ _ for leaves to stay on
or fall off where were all the people where
_ _ was Barbie Chang when she
took one more breath when she blew
_ _ out her last wrath
Victoria Chang’s latest books include Dear Memory: Letters on Writing, Silence, and Grief (Milkweed Editions, 2021) and the poetry collection The Trees Witness Everything (Copper Canyon Press, forthcoming 2022). Her collection OBIT (Copper Canyon Press, 2020) received the Los Angeles Times Book Prize, the Anisfield-Wolf Book Award in Poetry, and the PEN/Voelcker Award, and was longlisted for the National Book Award and named a finalist for the National Book Critics Circle Award and the Griffin International Poetry Prize. Her previous books of poems include the books of poems: Barbie Chang (Copper Canyon Press, forthcoming 2017); The Boss (McSweeney’s, 2013), winner of the PEN Center USA Literary Award and a California Book Award; Salvinia Molesta (University of Georgia Press, 2008), and Circle (Southern Illinois University Press, 2005). A 2017 Guggenheim Fellow, Chang holds an MFA from Warren Wilson College and an MBA from the Stanford School of Business. She is a core faculty member in Antioch University’s low-residency MFA Program. She lives in Los Angeles. She also writes children’s books. You can find her at www.victoriachangpoet.com. (updated 4/2022)