I have wanted to be married _   _had
no place to rest _   _ a heart

never remarries _   _ once
it sinks in deep _   _ though I have tried

and wanted to _   _ induce it. Ergot
bring babies, MDA _   _ being inorganic

suffuses the soul. Incomparable light.
I tried _   _ dead to the world

forgive me dead
to you _   _ compare it. Loneliness

absence of a place
to rest. Repeated _   _ ly rest in my heart

you said. You did
in mine or yours _    flexible_ being

the attitude of rest. No ledge
to lean on _   _ still. I lie in fields

the sky clouds mountains luminous
shades of grey. _   _ Three days

I walk towards the sunset
its relief _   _ a promise. Keep.